This is a blog for me, where I can escape and make this my diary. I have too much going on inside my head and I need to just get away from everything, without judgement, and this will be where I can do it. I don't care about shit I get. The more abuse I get, the more I'll be determined to do this. Don't ask me why I want to do this.
I just do.
Currently standing at 146lbs.
GW: 140 (4th July)
GW: 135
GW: 130 (12th July)
GW: 125
GW: 120
GW: 115 (7th August)
GW: 110
GW1: 105 (25th August)
GW2: 100 (10th Sept)
UGW: 90 (25th Sept)
I am bulimic, I have anorexic-tendencies. I smoke, I do sit ups and dance to the extreme, I fast and live off the minimum I can. I live on my own, so I can hide this so easily, and I have so many ways to shrink back down that I'm not afraid to go past my limits and work a little harder. I won't be happy until none of my skin jiggles and I can grab a fistful.
I've been referred to a specialist clinic, my doctors know and they're keeping an eye out, but what they don't know. Is that I'm going to fix myself, I'm going to make myself perfect if I can't be pretty.
